marți, 4 iunie 2013
I'm Going To Change
I'm tired to be someone that i'm not .Tired of being sorry for everyone with a sad story .Tired of people caring only for themselves . Tired of people judging when they actually don't know anything . This is it , i'm not going to take it anymore , i'm going to be myself ! I won't care if people like me or not . I'll walk with my head held high and enjoy every day on this planet.
The Change
Here I sit thinking about the events of the day. I’m shocked as I think back. The same question keeps playing in my mind as the actions of others scream in my mind.
How can people act like that and not think anything of it?
How can people do the things they do and not think twice?
Why do we let them?
They make us feel stupid or stab us in the back. And we let them. We are kind, christen. And what does it merit us?
Sleepless nights
Do they ever lose sleep? Does the guilt ever come creeping up on them? Do those hateful things they say and do ever come back to haunt them? Do they ever think “maybe she’s different maybe she doesn’t like being told off”?
Does it?
We get mad at them and fight with them. We suddenly find ourselves doing the very same things that they do. Suddenly we are the bad guys.
So now what?
Who was right and who was wrong?
I can’t really tell you who was wrong but I CAN tell you who was right.
It is the person who changes. The one who says “maybe I should have done or said that that. Next time I have a chance I will try to be nicer to the one who is hurting. I will make sure to always think of others. I will always put them first.”
Because the only way to fight what we hate is to NOT become part of it
luni, 4 martie 2013
Bacccck Part I
Helllo ~
Well hell , it's been a reaaaly long time since i posted here ...
SO .. i guess i should start by saying HAPPY NEW YEAR ! ( and all the other stuff )
Anyway .. Back to the point
I decided to come back , and post stuff from my life here cause , a lot has been happening lately and .. i think this might help me , in some ways ^^
So to make it quick and tell you what happened in the past year ( that is 2012 )
On the 18th of feb , my" Brother " died . He was one of the best dogs someone could ever have.
He was 13 years old . And all i want to say is that he left me ,with some great memories that i will never forget I really hope that where ever you are now , you are happy and watch over us like you always did .
Well hell , it's been a reaaaly long time since i posted here ...
SO .. i guess i should start by saying HAPPY NEW YEAR ! ( and all the other stuff )
Anyway .. Back to the point
I decided to come back , and post stuff from my life here cause , a lot has been happening lately and .. i think this might help me , in some ways ^^
So to make it quick and tell you what happened in the past year ( that is 2012 )
On the 18th of feb , my" Brother " died . He was one of the best dogs someone could ever have.
He was 13 years old . And all i want to say is that he left me ,with some great memories that i will never forget I really hope that where ever you are now , you are happy and watch over us like you always did .
I'm sorry for starting with something sad ...
In May , we temporary got a puppy that was found on the side of some village , skinny and scared , her name was Mura , and we kept her for about 4 months until she got adopted , she was one hell of a cute puppy and looked like an German Sh.
But she got lucky and a nice man adopted her and from what i've heard she is doing fine .
But she got lucky and a nice man adopted her and from what i've heard she is doing fine .
Summer Vacation started and i could think about was A-Camp , but sadly that was in August and before that ... mom made me go to another camp from the Dan Voiculescu Foundation , witch sucked .. but i'll tell you later about that ... soo ..
In June , I went with Ana , her brother and gf to Vama Veche , were i got really drunk in the first night ( well actually pretended to be drunk cause i was to tired to answer to people , but shhh.. don't tell anyone :D ) Saw a lot of hot and i mean HOT dudes ( my definition of hot .. is a male with beared , long hair , dreads , and most important an nice personality , not jerks :D )
We only stayed for a weeked but in the second day ( Sat . Night ) my parents decided to " surprise me" by coming too . They were unexpectedly nice and friendly with everyone , made jokes , laughed at a drunken ( epic) Jesus . The next day we went home T^T
hmm ... don't really remember what happened after that ...
but we found a kitten .. then another puppy ( both got adopted )
and AUGUST CAME!!
Fisrt up was Dan Voiculescu's camp . that was free...
And i must say , for me it SUCKED , it was horrible , and i don't think i would have survived if my old classmate Alex and Ana wouldn't have been with me > . <
We weren't allowed to do anything without the HOLE group to participate , and if by a miracle we did manage to do something it sucked , the food was horrible , some of the kids got food intoxication and were sent home , but i wasn't as lucky as them , no... i had to stay a hole week in Costinesti one of the most dirty beaches i have ever seen , it was full and i mean FULL of drama queens and idiots .
I simply hated it , that week felt like a month , and i couldn't wait to get home and ... relax .
After this .. A-camp came , i was so excited i could bearly sleep xD
I remember when i got to the train station , i saw a few people i know from Otaku and Nijikon , but i was so sky and embarrassed to go to them , so i waited and saw a girl i talked to on facebook and just .. stayed with her xD
The train came , we got on it , and lucky for me i had seats next to her . At first there weren't to many of us , but before the train announced it's departure ( not sure that's the word) a HUGE mass of people boarded the train and i just knew they were gonna be my friends in the upcoming week .
Next to me sat 2 twins , that were very friendly and at fisrt i thought they were around my age ... but guess what ... i was wrong ... they were 21 . if i think about it ... i was among the youngest of the campers .. but that didn't seem to matter , because everyone was so nice and friendly that it didn;t matter . hell everyone treated everyone the same . The firts day was a little ... weird because i didn't know anyone and most of them knew each other from other caps or were friends and .. i was pretty much and outsider so it felt weird . But that ended pretty fast cause we had to do some pretty funny things to get to know each other like ... get a bag of stuff and an egg and try to pack ( i know that's not the greatest word to use .. ) the egg so when we trow it from the first floor it won't crack . And other crazy stuff ...
The point is ... that this camp was one of the greatest and most awesome things i have ever been too , and i will go to the next camp and the next until i'll be soo old they won't want me anymore :D and i made A LOT of friends that i intend to keep ^ ^ cause they are simply awesome :3
In June , I went with Ana , her brother and gf to Vama Veche , were i got really drunk in the first night ( well actually pretended to be drunk cause i was to tired to answer to people , but shhh.. don't tell anyone :D ) Saw a lot of hot and i mean HOT dudes ( my definition of hot .. is a male with beared , long hair , dreads , and most important an nice personality , not jerks :D )
We only stayed for a weeked but in the second day ( Sat . Night ) my parents decided to " surprise me" by coming too . They were unexpectedly nice and friendly with everyone , made jokes , laughed at a drunken ( epic) Jesus . The next day we went home T^T
hmm ... don't really remember what happened after that ...
but we found a kitten .. then another puppy ( both got adopted )
and AUGUST CAME!!
Fisrt up was Dan Voiculescu's camp . that was free...
And i must say , for me it SUCKED , it was horrible , and i don't think i would have survived if my old classmate Alex and Ana wouldn't have been with me > . <
We weren't allowed to do anything without the HOLE group to participate , and if by a miracle we did manage to do something it sucked , the food was horrible , some of the kids got food intoxication and were sent home , but i wasn't as lucky as them , no... i had to stay a hole week in Costinesti one of the most dirty beaches i have ever seen , it was full and i mean FULL of drama queens and idiots .
I simply hated it , that week felt like a month , and i couldn't wait to get home and ... relax .
After this .. A-camp came , i was so excited i could bearly sleep xD
I remember when i got to the train station , i saw a few people i know from Otaku and Nijikon , but i was so sky and embarrassed to go to them , so i waited and saw a girl i talked to on facebook and just .. stayed with her xD
The train came , we got on it , and lucky for me i had seats next to her . At first there weren't to many of us , but before the train announced it's departure ( not sure that's the word) a HUGE mass of people boarded the train and i just knew they were gonna be my friends in the upcoming week .
Next to me sat 2 twins , that were very friendly and at fisrt i thought they were around my age ... but guess what ... i was wrong ... they were 21 . if i think about it ... i was among the youngest of the campers .. but that didn't seem to matter , because everyone was so nice and friendly that it didn;t matter . hell everyone treated everyone the same . The firts day was a little ... weird because i didn't know anyone and most of them knew each other from other caps or were friends and .. i was pretty much and outsider so it felt weird . But that ended pretty fast cause we had to do some pretty funny things to get to know each other like ... get a bag of stuff and an egg and try to pack ( i know that's not the greatest word to use .. ) the egg so when we trow it from the first floor it won't crack . And other crazy stuff ...
The point is ... that this camp was one of the greatest and most awesome things i have ever been too , and i will go to the next camp and the next until i'll be soo old they won't want me anymore :D and i made A LOT of friends that i intend to keep ^ ^ cause they are simply awesome :3
sooo...
Summer is over and 10th grade started ..
and what i have to say is that i have been skipping a lot . I don't know why , but i can't stop myself and i've been thinking of finishing 10th grade and ... quitting cause ... i just don't feel it's right .. and i know what most of you are thinking ... " yeah .. she;s an idiot you can't do anything witout a highschool diploma and bla bla bla " but that's not exactly what i want to do ...
What i want to do is quit after 10th grade and concentrate on drawing and painting , as much as i can cause i want to get good at it so i can enter UNArte without a problem .. but i can't do that when school feels my time with useless things that i will never use in life..
so .. my play is to quit , practice for 1 year and get at good as i can get , then when i'm 18 , go back and finish my last 2 classes , take the exam ( BAC) and enter University without a problem ^ ^
The this is that ... it just doesn't feel right for me to countinue going to school , it feels like a mistake , i just feel it that if i want to acheave my goal to become a graphic designer i have to do this .
The sad thing about school is that ... everyone knows you are skipping but no one in the school talks to you to see what is wrong with you , or give you some advice ... all they know is to yell at you or make fun ... and i'm pretty sick of people like that ..
yep i't 1:46 am and i'm pretty sleepy ... so i should go to bed and countinue this in the morning :D
Also before i go , i want to say that it feels pretty good to ... "be back " and it made me feel a little better .annnd i'm pretty sure no one will read this sooo that's even better , but if you are reading this .. would you mind leaving a comment , you don't have to say anything just ...idk something so i know someone actually took the time to read this mess ....
Thank you ~
* btw ... Sorry for my spelling mistakes *
Summer is over and 10th grade started ..
and what i have to say is that i have been skipping a lot . I don't know why , but i can't stop myself and i've been thinking of finishing 10th grade and ... quitting cause ... i just don't feel it's right .. and i know what most of you are thinking ... " yeah .. she;s an idiot you can't do anything witout a highschool diploma and bla bla bla " but that's not exactly what i want to do ...
What i want to do is quit after 10th grade and concentrate on drawing and painting , as much as i can cause i want to get good at it so i can enter UNArte without a problem .. but i can't do that when school feels my time with useless things that i will never use in life..
so .. my play is to quit , practice for 1 year and get at good as i can get , then when i'm 18 , go back and finish my last 2 classes , take the exam ( BAC) and enter University without a problem ^ ^
The this is that ... it just doesn't feel right for me to countinue going to school , it feels like a mistake , i just feel it that if i want to acheave my goal to become a graphic designer i have to do this .
The sad thing about school is that ... everyone knows you are skipping but no one in the school talks to you to see what is wrong with you , or give you some advice ... all they know is to yell at you or make fun ... and i'm pretty sick of people like that ..
yep i't 1:46 am and i'm pretty sleepy ... so i should go to bed and countinue this in the morning :D
Also before i go , i want to say that it feels pretty good to ... "be back " and it made me feel a little better .annnd i'm pretty sure no one will read this sooo that's even better , but if you are reading this .. would you mind leaving a comment , you don't have to say anything just ...idk something so i know someone actually took the time to read this mess ....
Thank you ~
* btw ... Sorry for my spelling mistakes *
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